ENOUGH!!!!
I HATE DRAMA- and that comment emmited by a girl kinda means that she has been a part of some kind of emotional smackdown with 1 or more girls envolved. Well theres life :) and the funny twist is that most drama could be overcome and delt with if people could just get over themselves (me included) and talk about what is going on. Wow couldnt life be easier. Enough of the miscomunication!
I HATE DEPRESSION- hate feeling depressed. And sorry to all those who read my blog- its fairly rare that i get as low as i was last week. I just had about a months worth of drama in 5 days, compleet with school starting, work pressure, the youth ministry regaining momentium, a simi breakup, an ex- almost returning, and three girls- one who hates me cause Im a christian- one who dosnt know who she is, so she hates everybody in turn, and one who I love who kinda just freeballs life and hurts herself! and i carry this too much. So enogh of that i dont have to have the weight of the world on my shoulders!
I HATE PITTY- so here it all is; three things i cant stand. So im standing up. Laughing more. Moving on, cause dang- life is just way too short to bum around feeling miserable.
Jesus said that his yolk is easy and his burden light. Now im not an ox, dont live on a farm- but the idea of a yolk is that you must pull something with this wooden pulling thingy that tends to be heavy (or so the oxen tell me) To pull baggage or bear a burden- its supposed to be light? Blah- i dont know. But if i can just walk with God today, and have him show me where and what. Dude if i can have the strength to listen to him when it hurts to hear his voice- the weight gets lifted! I feel freer! I am contented and joyful! Life is so amazing! And he is enough.
Yesterday I felt as if i would suffocate because the pressure of loving and breaking hearts was so heavy on my shoulders. Then my brother and a friend of ours went out to the beach (such a blessing to live in paradise) The sunset was for me. I have never seen a more beautiful sky! The lover of my soul- It occoured to me that God and the romance he persues me with is so vastly far beyond my heart- it hits all of me and all i could ever be at once. The way he loves (while I cant hold him in my arms) covers me so compleetly that when i just rest in that- his passion is enough to heal every part of who I am.
posted by o-likewoah @ 10:38 AM
2 Comments:
I never knew what the yolk analogy was all about. But I can say that DJ loaned me a book (which I kept) called "Traveling Light: Releasing The Burdens You Were Never Intended To Bear" by Max Lucado. Its oustanding, in fact I was reading it last night, and I will probably drag it to class to read on the breaks.
The chapters are:
2- The Burden of a Lesser God
3- The Burden of Self-Reliance
4- The Burden of Discontent
5- The Burden of Waeriness
6- The Burden of Worry
7- The Burden of Hopelessness
8- The Burden of Guilt
9- The Burden of Arrogance
10- The Burden of The Grave
11- The Burden of Grief
12- The Burden of Fear
13- The Burden of Loneliness
14- The Burden of Shame
15- The Burden of Dissapointment
16- The Burden of Envy
17- The Burden of Doubt
18- The Burden of Homesickness (heaven)
The reason I listed all of those chapters, is because when I first picked it up and started reading, I put it back down and determined it wasn't what I needed.
Then a few months later I skipped over a few, and found exactly whet I needed. And its seems now there's a chapter convering whatever burden it is I'm carrying that day.
Another book that I am reminded of reading your post is "The Things They Carried" which is a war novel, and is very very moving. I suggest it as good reading if you like war novels.
I have to go to school now.
Later
Neel
hey yall :) thanks- yeah i had never thought of the yolk analogy like that, and dude i am finding now its true. Another friend of mine (who is also in a ministerial position) and i were talking about how i feel so warn out. I told him that i feel like i have nothing to give anyone including myself. He said something that suprised me somewhat; "thats great! when you have nothing to give, you know everything depends on God, and you are forced into dependancy and a closer walk through your own brokenness and desperation" hmmmm wise words. And its true which is really relieving.
Yeah i think my mom has that book- deffinately gonna check it out- max lucado has a soothing way of writing.
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